Every Beginning Feels Hard
Today I took my barbell out of the basement and started training with it again.
I had put it away there 13 years ago. Yes, in 2012 I stopped working out because I fell into a deep depression. I was completely crushed, unemployed and heartbroken.
Today, after 13 years, I decided to start training again. During those years I gained 30 kilograms. Now I’m literally starting from zero. Everything in me feels worn out, I have no dreams, no goals, and it feels like I’m just drifting through life.
Still, something inside me is beginning to rise, whispering that I need to get back on my feet, that this is not the end. There were times when I felt completely hopeless, when everything seemed dark, but I don’t want to stay in that place anymore.
I joined Bear Blog to take a break from the gloomy everyday life. I’m overwhelmed by negativity, and here I read things that are different from all the toxic content I usually see on Facebook.
I’m from Bulgaria, and some people get confused when they see that country in their analytics. They think it’s some kind of bot, but it’s not, it’s me. I just read what you write to clear the negativity inside me and to look at things from another perspective.
By the way, I know many of you dislike AI, but please don’t judge me for using it. English isn’t my native language, and I tend to express myself in complicated ways. AI helps me simplify my sentences so they can be understood in English.
Thank you for reading.